confusion..

hmmm...i'm feeling like i might need a change in career's. it's been a really, really rough four months, and i'm not sure this is where i am to be.

the kicker...is that i don't know where else i should be.

any good ideas?

i enjoy kids.
i love taking pictures.
i like traveling.
i have to work...i just bought a new car (and have a car payment).
i'd like to not work.
i need insurance.
i'd like to make a difference, but maybe in a different way.
i miss working with families.

hmmmmm....seriously, i don't know what to do.

here are the thoughts that have crossed my head today....
bank teller.
cruise ship photographer.
sears photographer.


hmmmm.....really. really.

and it all just makes me cry. blah.

i hate feeling like this. i must make a change, but change is hard.


if barack obama can change the world, so can i.

in my own way, in my own time........

what do you think, blog readers? where do you see me?

So, this is what we did this morning.....Kate and Aunt Emily.
We both put rollers in our hair all day long...Kate had the original sponge rollers that I used as a kid.
However, she had a choice of sizes (represented by colors) and we distributed them evenly.
We had so much fun this morning making curls, keeping the rollers in our hair all day.
Right before her dance recital, we took the rollers out...and she looked like Shirley Temple.
We had so much fun.



Isn't she sweet?

Kate wanted to show off her nails and our rollers at the same time. See, I had them in my hair too.

Fresh out of the rollers, she looked like Shirley Temple.

At the end of the process...we both had huge hair and curls.



We had such a fun time doing this!

my brother and sister in law's christmas kiddos...

A few of the snapshots from taking Kate, Will, and Andrew's Christmas Card Picture Time. It was fun...no, really, it was great. I should add my favorite of Andrew crying while Kate's smashing his head and Will's grabbing his fingers. It's hard being the baby.... :)

Aren't they beautiful children? I sure think so!

 

 

 

 

Andrew's First Haircut

My youngest nephew, Andrew, had his first haircut at 8 1/2 months this past weekend. I've been here for the first haircut for all of them..Kate at 2ish..and Will at 1ish. It was so fun. Andrew loved it. He just smiled and smiled. Here are a before, during, and after shot!

Sweet sweet boy.

one of THOSE days...

Do you ever just have one of those days?


Well, today was my day...and I had a mini-breakdown at work. It wasn't in front of a huge group, or really anyone except for my direct supervisor (for the moment). And, I had hidden it all so well (as well as I can hide it..) and then I just lost it. I started talking and the tears started flowing...and flowing..and flowing. I'm not sure what sparked it today, but it came like a waterfall. My eyes are still tired and burning...and it didn't help that we had a three hour long meeting afterwards to talk about the plans for the future.

So, we decided that it was now or never...I have to get over the past and move on to the future. I came to this place because I believe in it, and no one said it would be easy (guaranteed), but I never thought it would be as hard as it is now...

So, tomorrow is a new day...and I'm excited for the future. I'm excited to see what's going to happen...how I'm going to be a part of that..and I hope in a year I'll look back on this challenging time and know it was all to make me stronger. I'm going to sleep well tonight, perhaps with a cold washcloth over my eyes, take some tylenol to get rid of my headache, and wake up afreshed.

That is my prayer. No more crying eyes for me.




“But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.” Deuteronomy 4:29


Am I expecting a living Jesus to be part of my life today? To see and understand what I am going through? Do I expect Him to make a difference in my circumstances? I’m afraid I often don’t see Him right there working in my life because I am not looking for a living Jesus but a distant, uninvolved one. I might pray to Him one moment, and completely forget to ask His help moments later. He may be right there guiding my steps but all I see are closed doors and disappointment.

When I am able to grasp that He is right here with me and He is alive and active in my life, then I more clearly hear His voice and see what He is doing. He is active. He can give me the strength I need to get through whatever the day holds. He is speaking to me.


I just need to REMEMBER this moment to moment.

he's three already..

I can't believe he's already three.....here's to Will (the middle nephew-at the moment) and all your glory.

A few things about Will from his Aunt Emily:

Will has the sweetest heart....and cares about everything.
Will has an amazing memory...and won't hesitate to ask you a question about something that happened three months ago.
Will loves to look at Christmas lights, and even Christmas ducks.
Will loves to play with you, and knows exactly how to pull your strings to get you to go outside...even when it's super cold.

Above all else, Will is an amazing little boy and I can't wait to watch him grow up as his Aunt Emily.

Hearing his sweet voice makes any day better. Hmmm..maybe I should have a regular conversation with him each day....

Happy Birthday buddy.

And, I picked a few snapshots from the weekend...including his older sister, Kate, and his younger brother, Andrew!